Living Paradox

Sihle Qhoboshiyane is a simple man with complexities. A man with No Talent but several Skills. A highly opinionated introvert. A people person without charisma. A person who knows how the game is played but can't actually play the game himself.

I hail from several places really, I was born in Matatiele, and l lived there for first 6 years of my life, but my Maternal ancestral home is Luyengweni, Mount Frere which is close to Matatiele, and is only separated by the Kirha river which acts the border between Matatiele and Mount Frere. I spent most of my childhood and teenage years in Ekurhuleni, Gauteng and my early adult years in Pretoria. I could never fully fit in whatever place I was at, but I grew to have a good understanding of different communities.

Luyengweni, Mt Frere Matatiele, Eastern Cape Benoni, Ekurhuleni

I am a staunch Pro-African person in political and social ideology, but I am a Pentecostal Christian.

I recognize the significance of cultural identity and its historic values which I came to appreciate after taking my rite of passage, Ulwaluko according to Hlubi customs.

It taught me how to love myself as a Black man in a world filled with prejudices against people who look like me. It taught me to seek the truth and document it from an Afrocentric perspective. We look to the past to understand the circumstances of the present.

I also grew up in the Church and in a Christian family,

I was taught a great deal about scripture and how to live in this world for the next. Africanism Purists view Christianity as a colonial tool weaponized against the African and that Eurocentric Christianity demonizes all "Africanness". These juxtapositions are often causes of an identity crisis within myself but are essential for my journey of discovering my spiritual identity without forsaking my earthly identity.

My family heritage is weird altogether. Legally I am Sihle Qhoboshiyane but I am Mpho Motale II according to my Paternal family. I have four siblings, one older sister from mom, and 3 younger siblings from dad. Although my father is Mosotho descending from the Mosia Clan, I resonate far more with my Hlubi maternal heritage, from the language, my journey to manhood to the historical knowledge.

This blog is meant to document and diarize my thoughts, history and future and get me to better understand the paradoxes of my life.